I recently had a weekend away with some great girlfriends, up at one of the most beautiful and special places on Earth.
Malibu (British Columbia).
Something that I’ve been struggling with, since the day really that I chose to leave my formal working world career, and join the ranks of the bravest gals I know as a stay-at-home-mom, is the feeling of what is my purpose? Can God really use me in this role? For more than just my kids.
As a former career-girl, who experienced a fairly good amount of success in a short period of time, letting go of these ideals has been so hard for me. And I admit that I’ve gone through these “Little Years” with the thought that ‘things will get better on the other side’.
‘As soon as I’m done being pregnant’
‘As soon as they are all in school then I can start my life again’
‘As soon as we don’t have naps anymore’
Sound familiar at all?
While although those future seasons will no doubt bring about more freedom and flexibility during the day, I’ve been struck and brought back recently by a truth that I am finally starting to really believe.
Start where you are.
Use what you have.
Do what you can.
Where have I convinced myself along the way, that I need to have everything together in order to help? We don’t need to be done with naps in order to join that committee or group that my heart is saying yes to.
God has equipped me now. Tomorrow is not to be worried about.
We have gifts now. They might seem super little, or insignificant.
And I feel like that’s right where the enemy wants us to rest.
Feelings of being paralyzed, or in a holding pattern, where “someday” you’ll get back in the game and serve.
I’m just not willing to camp there anymore. There’s freedom and fruit in the little things. I am freed of the lies that I can’t do anything now. And I want you to be too.
Let’s stop making excuses.
Trust me, I get it. Being a mom of littles is HARD. I am trying to digest and accept this message just as much as you.
And yes, there for sure are some boundary and lifestyle restrictions that won’t allow you to do, or join, every little thing. And I don’t think you should.
But if there’s something burning in your heart, and you just feel like ‘now’s not the right time’ because of [insert whatever life circumstance here], then I want to encourage you (and me), to simply start where you are, use what you have, and do what you can.
Don’t put God in a box. He will bless that which he has given you in your heart.
Don’t buy into the lie that you can’t do it right now. Those feelings of fear, or doubt, or inadequacy – they are not from our Creator. I promise you that. He has gifted you in some way right now. Right where you stand.
Let’s not miss out on what he has for us now, while we wait for the future.
I will step down off my soap box now. 🙂 Love you ladies, and this community!